Ok, for all 2 of you who keep asking for the “deep thoughts” from my end of the pool, this is what’s been on my mind lately:
What do you delight in? I mean really, truly take deep joy in? I read in this in a book this week:
“The true dimensions of a soul are seen in its delights. Not what we dutifully will, but what we passionately want reaveals our excellence or evil.”
That really got me thinking. What do I delight in? Psalm 37:4 says “Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Well, that’s kind of a play on words, isn’t it? Some people take that to mean, “Hey, if I pray and go to church and do good things, then God will give me what I want! SWEET!!!” Actually, it seems to mean that if God is our delight, our joy, then He will be the desire of our heart. If we delight in Him, if we find joy in Him, then we will have exactly what we desire.
Here’s my problem, though: I can’t honestly say I desire my God above all things. I mean, and I’m sad to say this, I get more excited from the Hurricanes scoring a big goal than I do at church. You may say, “What’s wrong with that?” Well, as a Christian, shouldn’t the fact that Jesus died for my sins so that I could have life abundant make me want to jump and shout all the more than the ‘Canes scoring a big goal? I say, Yes, it should. But most days, it doesn’t.
There are many things I delight in that I know are good, even gifts from above: my lovely wife, and the way her eyes dance when she’s happy; the look on her face when I surprise her; the touch of her hand against mine; or the sheer joy on my daughter’s face when I come home from work; or the way she laughs when we play peek-a-boo. And even the joy I get from the Canes winning is a good thing. But do I stop to think Who those delights came from in the first place? Most days, I don’t.
There are also many things I delight in that I’m ashamed of. I won’t go into that here…we all have our demons. I must admit to myself that I have taken delight in things that cause me and the ones I love nothing but pain. Why do we do these things? Why do we desire that which we know is wrong?
My heart wants to desire God and all He has given me above all, yet my humanity gets in the way.
So there ya go. Mattie’s version of the triple gainer off the high dive into the deep end.