Doubting Thomas

Why do I doubt God?  Why do I question His goodness and love for me?  Why do I act as if I need to “help Him out”?  And when I feel like I get it, I mean when I feel like I really GET it, really believe He is God, and that He IS goodness Personified, it’s not long before I’m back to doubting again.

There’s a real short answer to this question:  lack of faith.  When the rubber meets the road, I don’t believe that He’s good, that He’s Love, that He’s really concerned about me and my tiny life. 
Thank God Jesus said it only takes a tiny bit of faith to move mountains.  It’s an area where size does not seem to matter.  Praise God.
Because I struggle.  Daily.  I cling tightly to my little mustard seed just to get through the day.  
But I cling to it. 
I cling to Jesus and what He did for me on the cross, and when He rose again.  If I believe He did that, then surely I can believe Him when He says “For I know the thoughts I think toward you…thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”  (Jeremiah 29:11)
So I will cling to Jesus.  I will take Him at His Word.  I say, with the man in Mark 9:24 “Lord I believe!  Help my unbelief!”

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